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It’s late and I should be sleeping, butI’m not. I’m trying to figure out my next steps in all this content creation business. I’ve decided to go ahead and start a Patreon. I have a video announcing it, but it’s not going up on my main YouTube page. I sometimes worry about the blowback from asking for donations. I mean, I spend a ton of time working on this stuff for people to enjoy. I don’t know. If you want to donate, please do, but don’t feel obligated to, and definitely don’t if you don’t have the cash to do so. Watch my video if you have any questions, and if you want my thoughts on the whole Patreon model, read an earlier entry:

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Thoughts on Anxiety, Content Creation, and some strange Deja Vu

Are these for fun? I thought they were for mOAR WERK

Are these for fun? I thought they were for mOAR WERK

So I’ve been really hitting this content creation hard lately. I mean, I love doing it, but I really tried to take a night tonight to myself after finishing my video that releases tomorrow evening. With the exception of taking an evening for dinner and a game of cards with some friends, I worked almost nonstop. I stayed up until 3 AM Friday night recording voice over, only to then make a collection vlog video. I sit at my computer every single day for hours trying to research content, create content, watch other people’s content to inspire me and network, and I take very little time to myself to relax and recharge.  I’ve recently tried to start reading a book every night before bed to kind of wind down, and it has been helping a bit. I’m honestly not trying to complain here, I just finally think I’ve pinpointed some of the causes for my workaholic tendencies.

I’ve almost always had an issue with anxiety. I remember my first anxiety attack was in the middle of the night in my dad’s apartment way back in the mid 90s. I was 10 or 11…I can’t remember how old. I’m always on edge, and if I’m not on edge, it’s because I’m buried in something. I’m either playing a game, reading a book, or these days, making videos or writing. It’s good to have an outlet that allows me to blow off all that excess nervous energy that I build up all day at work. Don’t get me wrong, I like my job, but it’s tough. It’s a strain every day wondering if I’m doing good enough work or if I’m going to screw something up and have to address an emergency. It’s not good for anxiety.

When I get home, I pour myself into my video game work. It is very stressful and draining, but I always kind of excuse that with the whole “I’m making my own deadlines” thing. I feel like I can stop at any time if it gets to be too much, though I keep pushing myself, full well knowing it’s stressing me out even further. I’m an anxious mess lately, battling panic attacks and having problems shaking general unease every day. I’m battling with a work-life balance issue. Noting this, I decided that tonight, I’d sit down and watch some Dragon Ball Z. Shut off the computer and social media (with the exception of a chat or two I have going with close friends) and just watch Frieza pound on some Z fighters. (Goku just got to the battle!)

The problem is, I couldn’t shut off work. I couldn’t get work off my mind, either the bill paying kind or the “fun” kind. I wasn’t being productive with my time. I have so many games in my backlog. I have so many videos to work on. I have to go to work in the morning and solve REALLY challenging issues. I have a deployment coming up and I don’t know how much time I have left….wait….what?

I’m still in deployment mode. It’s been 7 years since I got back from my last year long deployment. I thought I weaned myself out of the Army with 5 years of Reserve time. Nope. I’m still living each day like I have to get as much in as I can because I’ve “got a deployment coming up and I don’t know if I’ll be coming back”…when I really don’t. I’m not going anywhere. I have my whole life ahead of me without some looming deadline on my freedom. But my mind doesn’t think that way. My mind keeps saying that I only have so much time to get in what I want to get done before I have to leave for a deployment that doesn’t really exist.

I keep rushing to get in as much as I can each day, just so I can say that I’ve gotten enough done so I can pack it in for a year of suck and unpredictability. And I keep repeating it. It feels so familiar now, for whatever reason. It feels just like it did back in 2007 when I was finally living with my wife whom I hadn’t actually lived with despite being married since the end of 2005. I need to slow the fuck down, and I’m not really sure how to do that.  I look at my dad, who is very much the same way. He’s constantly trying to be as productive as possible, and I worry that I’ll never be free to sit down and relax for awhile.

Well, whatever. Time to go record game footage for my next video.

Interview with Sleepy Kraken Developer Volcano Bean

I recently talked with Mary McKenzie and Gene Kelly from Volcano Bean studios about their new mobile game, Sleepy Kraken. It’s a fun whack-a-mole type game, that Mary calls a “tap and smash”, that’s simple and charming. The game draws inspiration from old school arcade games.


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5 Affordable NES Hidden Gems

I throw my hat into the NES Hidden Gems ring. This is just a short video that I wanted to try to do in just a few hours. I’ll say that doing this once every two weeks or so may be just what this channel needs to have weekly content. Expect something like this every other week, with a Palette Swap or Braselspective on the off weeks.

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Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles are Retro Gaming Icons – Gaming Rebellion

In the 80’s and 90’s, the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles were an institution; almost required curriculum for growing up. It was an unavoidable pop sensation that absolutely everyone knew about, unless you weren’t a kid, didn’t have kids, and didn’t want to have anything to do with kids…or happiness. When the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle cartoon hit airwaves in October of 1988 (A 5 episode pilot aired in 1987), pizza fever was rampant. You couldn’t really go anywhere without hearing about or seeing something Ninja Turtles related. It was a fact of life.


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2015 Was Weird

2015 was weird, and that’s really the best word for it. I started my content in 2014, but things didn’t really pick up until 2015. I started writing for Gaming Rebellion, I upped the quality of my videos, I helped start a podcast, I wrote a book. I don’t think I’ve ever done that many personal and non paid creative things in an entire year on my own.  Sure, I used to be pretty active in a band, but I had my bandmates pushing me along when I didn’t want to do anything. This was almost entirely done on my own motivation, with a little help from the admis at Gaming Rebellion and my fellow Retroholics.  There were so many times where I just wanted to dump this all and quit, but I’d give it a day to think about, and then I’d come roaring back with new stuff to work on.  I haven’t been so motivated since I was in the Army with leadership breathing down my neck.  I guess I learned something in all those years in the military.

I don’t really want to go through and share all the highlights that happened this year. Most everything I worked on I thought was a highlight to me, just because I’m so proud of actually finishing things. Just take a look back through the feed of my website if you want to see the 2015 highlights. They’re all there.

Uhh.  This was aimless and pointless.  Happy 2016. This is the year I finally get rich and famous and become the President of the World.


Old Content, Same Site, Other Stuff

I’ve been neglecting my site over the last few months, and I have to stop that.  For the rest of this week, you’ll see scheduled posts of all the content I failed to post. Watch again if you want, or don’t. It’s not a big deal. I just want to be able to point people to my website so they’ll see all my latest content rather than have to point them to a thousand different places.

I ordered parts for a new PC, so I’m really excited about that. It’s mostly a budget “gaming” PC, but I’ll show you the specs anyway.

  • Intel Core i5-4460 3.2 GHz Quad Core Processor
  • MSI Z97 Gaming 5 ATX LGA1150 Motherboard
  • G.Skill Ripjaws X 16 GB RAM
  • Kingston SSDNow V300 120 GB Solid State Drive
  • EVGA SuperNOVA NEX 650W 80+ Gold Cert Fully Modular ATX Power Supply

And the parts I already had:

  • Zalman Z5 Black Stell ATX Mid Tower (No USB 3.0 Ports on the case, unfortunately)
  • 1 TB WD Black Drive (For storage)
  • ATI XFX R7950 GHOST 3 GB GDDR5 Video Card (Got for free from an old friend)
  • DVD Drive from some old HP computer
  • Old ass monitors that I’ll need to replace.
  • Microsoft PRO GAMING (not really) Ergonomic Keyboard
  • Dell OEM mouse (I’m a baller)

This was all done with the intent on having a computer that A) wasn’t running on 10 year old failing hardware and B) would keep up with my video editing and game recording.  I didn’t spend a ton, but enough.

I’m also still waiting on Retroware to get me going on my new article series for them. I’m chomping at the bit and ready to go, but alas, they apparently aren’t. Still excited to get going though!